Vindicated

I just want to let my blog readers know:

I haven't been, nor have I even tried, to be the best that I could and should be. 

I say I want to give love, accountability, and friendship.

I fail in all aspects.

But what I love is that every time I fall, there is always room for redemption. Sometimes, I feel bad because it's like, dang, what if I'm taking advantage of God's grace, knowing He'll always love me and accept me in all my dirtiness. But, I know that worrying about that will cheapen God's grace. I don't want to fall into trying to pay God back or be legalistic. 

Forgive me friends!

Strawberry Days

Okay, I don't know about you guys...but I really want to go try the Kogi tacos. I just hear nothing but good things about it. I always hear about how packed it is and how they use Korean bbq meat for their tacos. I even went on their website and salivated after looking through their pictures. I was doing my business in my parent's bathroom and saw the Kogi truck featured on the front page of the Korean news. THAT'S HOW KOGI IS TAUNTING ME RIGHT NOW.

So, I must go. I MUST GO.

The Lining is Silver

Trying to live life without God feels empty.

This, I learned throughout high school; back when I thought I could do it on my own, throw off my "religion" yoke and finally become immersed in this huge, diverse world. People will have you believe that your vision is clouded and you are narrow-minded if you continue to cling onto this childish belief in a God. And for a time, I agreed. I felt, who are Christians to judge this and that, just because their God said so? It didn't make sense.

But call it the God delusion. Call it the God gene. Try to attribute the spiritual highs to abnormal physiology or elevated emotion. Tell me that I'm just finding an excuse to not deal with my problems by so easily trusting in my God. SAY IT. I'm being unrealistic.

But I can't live without God. He gives me a peace that the world cannot provide. The comfort I get from God, I can't find in anything else, not my accomplishments, not even my friends and family, nothing. Knowing the extent of His grace, knowing His LOVE. How can I not rejoice?

How can I not worship?

There Can Be No Dispute That Monsters Live Among Us

Do you think Ginkgo Biloba supplement pills will really work in improving my memory capacity?

We will find out soon enough!!

In other news, it is officially finals week.

Additionally, I am screwed because it is finals week!

Finally, this weekend is ruined because it is finals week!

I encourage everyone to study hard and not party hard. Sleep too little, eat too late, study sparingly, and hang out excessively. THIS IS FINALS WEEK.

If "FINALS" were an emissary sent to me asking me to give up my week to its supreme majesty and be subject to its rule, I would kick Finals down a bottomless well.

19th Nervous Breakdown

No, I really haven't had 19 nervous breakdowns. 

But It's almost 5 AM.

I'm halfway through my 12 pages of Muir 50 essay.

I have approximately 10 hours to finish this mess.

19. 5. 12. 50. 10.

Decipher.me

The Ice is Getting Thinner

Why is it so hard to love some people?

My patience is spread so thin. 

But I must love them.