Enjoy the Silence

I decided, it's not fair to judge anything before you have tried it or before you have thoroughly researched and educated yourself about it. Such a simple, obvious lesson, but it took a while for me. So here are two examples of how I've been trying to practice my new philosophy:

I talked trash about Twilight. Edward Cullen? Vampires? A whole book filled with glorified adjectives about the impossible attractiveness of a vampire? No thank you. Not to mention a horrid movie was also released. I was genuinely appalled by the whole Twilight craze, especially the throng of girls who are ready to sell their hearts for the sexy fictional pale-skinned, auburn hair, beautiful, perfect straight nose, piercing ice cold brown eyes, *insert more adjectives* Edward Cullen. 

But alas, I have judged this entire franchise without giving it a chance. The craze may be a bit much, but who knows? Maybe the book may offer intrigue and end up being an excellent read. So I picked up Twilight for 4 bucks off Half.com and I've started reading it as a bathroom read. I'll let you guys know how I like it.

Secondly, Tristina challenged me about sorority girls. She asked me why I hate sororities so much. And I gave some typical answers like, "Bleh, there's just no purpose! All they do is drink and pay money to have friends!" And then she asked me how I know that. And I say, "Just look at Facebook and it's just obvious through pictures. And I have some friends in sororities too, it's just dumb". Furthermore, she pushed my buttons by saying "But how do you know all of them are like that, what about the ones who don't drink? What about sorority girls who are in it for connections and for valid reasons?" To that, I just say "Bah humbug". I admit that I do judge them, although I am honestly not really tight or close with any one of them to know them that well. 

But today, I talked to a sorority girl and asked her all types of questions about her sorority. After somewhat of an educational conversation, I concluded this:

Sororities still have no point; all you do is dress up and attend events, which usually involves drinking. "You pay to have a social life (1200 a year). You don't really make friends unless you really make the effort anyway". Direct quote from the girl.

Well, done deal. I still don't like sororities.

Lovefool

Random thoughts of the day:

1. I don't write in my blog enough.

2. I want to watch Tae Guk Gi and feel the BROTHERHOOD.

3. I don't want to work tomorrow =(.

4. I STILL haven't cleaned my room. It's been 3 weeks now.

5. It feels good to actually get work done. EARLY. and AHEAD OF TIME.

6. My classes are interesting!

I feel like I need to prioritize and get my life back into shape.

See, I hate typing that. Because I feel like I've regurgitated that same exact statement hundreds of times throughout my life. I sound like a broken record. I have never at one point felt that my life was completely in my control. I guess it goes to say that it probably never will be. My life will always be unpredictable and exciting. Not because exciting things happen to me, but because the unexpected always seems to pop up when I'm not paying attention. 

I bought Trader Darwin's COMPLETE EFA (flaxseed, borage seed & fish oils) all in one dietary supplement because I want to take care of my brain. Does anyone think all these supplements and crazes about miracle foods are all a fluke? I'm willing to take my chances and take these supplements if it means my brain will live for a long, long time. One of the things I fear most is the deterioration of my memory and cognitive functions. Of course, if my brain does go kapoot, I probably wouldn't be all that aware of the dearth of my condition and it wouldn't matter to me. But, the thought makes me shudder still. My brain is what I have to continue to live life vicariously and be conscious of my heart (not just the beating organ, but everything I love and care about). 

DAN

Vindicated

I just want to let my blog readers know:

I haven't been, nor have I even tried, to be the best that I could and should be. 

I say I want to give love, accountability, and friendship.

I fail in all aspects.

But what I love is that every time I fall, there is always room for redemption. Sometimes, I feel bad because it's like, dang, what if I'm taking advantage of God's grace, knowing He'll always love me and accept me in all my dirtiness. But, I know that worrying about that will cheapen God's grace. I don't want to fall into trying to pay God back or be legalistic. 

Forgive me friends!

Strawberry Days

Okay, I don't know about you guys...but I really want to go try the Kogi tacos. I just hear nothing but good things about it. I always hear about how packed it is and how they use Korean bbq meat for their tacos. I even went on their website and salivated after looking through their pictures. I was doing my business in my parent's bathroom and saw the Kogi truck featured on the front page of the Korean news. THAT'S HOW KOGI IS TAUNTING ME RIGHT NOW.

So, I must go. I MUST GO.

The Lining is Silver

Trying to live life without God feels empty.

This, I learned throughout high school; back when I thought I could do it on my own, throw off my "religion" yoke and finally become immersed in this huge, diverse world. People will have you believe that your vision is clouded and you are narrow-minded if you continue to cling onto this childish belief in a God. And for a time, I agreed. I felt, who are Christians to judge this and that, just because their God said so? It didn't make sense.

But call it the God delusion. Call it the God gene. Try to attribute the spiritual highs to abnormal physiology or elevated emotion. Tell me that I'm just finding an excuse to not deal with my problems by so easily trusting in my God. SAY IT. I'm being unrealistic.

But I can't live without God. He gives me a peace that the world cannot provide. The comfort I get from God, I can't find in anything else, not my accomplishments, not even my friends and family, nothing. Knowing the extent of His grace, knowing His LOVE. How can I not rejoice?

How can I not worship?

There Can Be No Dispute That Monsters Live Among Us

Do you think Ginkgo Biloba supplement pills will really work in improving my memory capacity?

We will find out soon enough!!

In other news, it is officially finals week.

Additionally, I am screwed because it is finals week!

Finally, this weekend is ruined because it is finals week!

I encourage everyone to study hard and not party hard. Sleep too little, eat too late, study sparingly, and hang out excessively. THIS IS FINALS WEEK.

If "FINALS" were an emissary sent to me asking me to give up my week to its supreme majesty and be subject to its rule, I would kick Finals down a bottomless well.

19th Nervous Breakdown

No, I really haven't had 19 nervous breakdowns. 

But It's almost 5 AM.

I'm halfway through my 12 pages of Muir 50 essay.

I have approximately 10 hours to finish this mess.

19. 5. 12. 50. 10.

Decipher.me